Wednesday, July 27, 2016


Now that I have eased into welcoming myself back to blogging, I want to get a little deeper today.

I am a white. I am a female. I have brown hair. Sometimes I wear it straight and sometimes I let it fall naturally curly. I have brown eyes and wear contacts.  I was raised a good portion of my life by a single mother who put herself through nursing school once she was an adult and had already had children.  I didn't grow up in a wealthy family, but I also was blessed with the things I needed and some that I wanted. I went to college. I worked my butt off throughout college. I met my husband and got married and had children shortly after. I have had ups and downs and I have made mistakes in my life. Those mistakes have made me stronger today.  I worked outside of the home and now am blessed to be able to stay home with our children. As my life continues, so will my story.. and so will yours.

You may be wondering why I am giving you a short version of a biography about myself.. it is as easy as this: I want you to know that regardless of what your life history may look like, your life matters. Our lives are worth the same.

In this world, it breaks my heart to see so many bad things going on. A man or woman's life matters regardless of their color or occupation. Their life matters regardless of the neighborhood they belong to. My heart breaks for the miscommunication, actions out of fear, or hatred that may have led to tragic situations like there has been of late.  My heart breaks also for the men and women that wake up every day and put on their uniform and go out to our streets to protect our country of wrong-doing.  They put their lives on the line for ours.  I have family and I have very close friends that are police officers. I have very close friends and family that are of different ethnicity and color. I love them all. I want to keep them all safe. I hate that when there is something bad that happens that everyone immediately gets clumped into the same area of target. It is ALL police officers. ALL white people, ALL black people, ALL republicans, ALL democrats, etc.  Really, it is just that individual person(s) that is responsible for their own actions. That one person that made choices, regardless of what those are.

How do we stop these acts? How do we stop these accusations? These lost lives, these broken hearts and families?

My hope would be that when something so terrible happens in this world that instead of driving people to have hatred for those not like them, to group together to show love, compassion, and most of all to be colorblind. Everyone's lives matter.  Black Lives Matter. White Lives Matter. Male Lives Matter. Female Lives Matter. Homosexual Lives Matter. Heterosexual Lives Matter. We all Matter.

Let us give grace. Let us fight back against the storm with love and understanding. With empathy and compassion. We need to raise our children to show kindness, to give the benefit of the doubt, to love more and judge less, to give when we can give and pray for those that we can't help. I don't know about you, but I can't imagine the world that our children and their families will grow up in if something doesn't change.

Let us remember that we are all brothers and sisters and it doesn't matter what you look like, what your sexual preference is, what you choose as your occupation. We all do matter.

My life is worth the same as your life.  Let us Respect each other.

And let us give remembrance to all that have lost their lives. May they rest in peace and may their family and friends find healing.


Thursday, July 7, 2016

Oh hey! Remember me?

Hello Blogger friends!

Wow, I cannot believe how long it has been since I have written last. Let me play catch up real quick.

First and foremost, I am not only trying to keep up with Kennedy anymore. Now I have two little ones to keep up with. In August 2014, we welcomed our second little girl, Saylor.

Life with the two of them has been the most rewarding experience of my life. But damn, they push your buttons some times :)  Kennedy transitioned into the best big sister and she loves Saylor so immensely. I couldn't ask for more from her. And as for Saylor; Kennedy is her world.  She wants to be exactly like her big sister and do everything she does.  She has the best smile and likes to make new friends everywhere we go.  Such a ham.

Also, this past December we moved!  If you remember awhile back I mentioned that we were considering if we would move or build. We ended up finding a great spot out of town and along a river where the girls can run wild with our dogs. They love it. We love it.  It was such a great spot.  We purchased the land in the Fall of 2014 and built last summer/fall. It was quite a process and really made me learn patience and have faith that it would all work out and in the end it did all of that.

Off the top of my head I am trying to figure out if there is anything else I need to catch you up on but I think we will start with that.

So anyway, a bit of catching up there. Now onto some other projects that I have scheduled for today.  Make sure to follow me on Instagram for more frequent updates of life lately!


Saturday, August 8, 2015

4 year olds

Oh look who is blogging today! I know you are probably like "who the heck is this lady anyway?" 

I can't believe that I haven't blogged in almost two years. That is ridiculous. I guess I was just feeling burnt out of the whole blogging thing. I felt like I had nothing much to say and I was setting my own expectations too high. I also have to admit I was having mixed feelings about having my life out there so much. I wanted to protect my family and children. But at the end of the day this has always been such a good outlet for me when I needed it and there isn't any more info out there than you can't already find some other way. (that doesn't mean it is a welcome sign for a bunch of creepers though).

So a lot has happened since December of '13.  And I promise I will play catch up and fill all of you lovely souls in about life but today I really just needed a place to vent.

My oldest (yep; for those of you that don't know, we added another one to the mix last August) is just wearing me out lately.  I feel so defeated by the end of the day, everyday.  I can't tell you the last time we have gone an entire day without a massive tantrum fight. I know that she is trying to find her way in this world and figure things out. I know that she is testing boundaries. I know that a lot of things have changed in her life and she needs some time to adjust to that.  I try so hard to remain calm and be patient with those but guys, there is only so much I can handle of that.

I feel lost. I feel like I am a failure because I can't keep my child happy.  We try to focus on her when I get the feeling she is having a hard time sharing our attention with her sister.  I make sure she knows how loved she is, and do special things together and have Kenne and mama dates and Andy does the same. We also want her to know that this is life though and she does have to share our attention. Still, nothing makes it better. We do things to let her run off her energy and tap into her creative juices and still there are just tantrums and no reasoning going on. 

She is so strong-willed. And not just for a 4 year old, but for a person. 

Does anyone have any magical advice that might work?  Please tell me that I am not the only one that is dealing with this.  "Terrible twos" were a dream in our house. Four?  Four is kicking my ass.


Monday, December 16, 2013

Christmas in our Home

I love Christmas.  That is no big secret if you know me. I am more than happy to admit that I put my Christmas trees, yes plural, up the first week of November. Why wouldn't I want to enjoy one of the happiest and most important times of the year as much as possible?

So this is what our home looks like these days.

A little bowl of cheer for my kitchen counter

Kennedy's Christmas Tree that she decorated for her playroom

Our Christmas tree in our lower living room

Always front and center.

Table centerpiece with candlesticks

My favorite new Advent Calendar that my stepdad bought me.

Always a Christmas canvas

Even my office got a touch of Christmas cheer.

Our front porch.

I will try to remember one of these nights to take pictures of our house and yard lit up. This is the first year that I wrapped our trees out front and put a couple yard ornaments up.

Tis' the Season.