Saturday, August 8, 2015

4 year olds

Oh look who is blogging today! I know you are probably like "who the heck is this lady anyway?" 

I can't believe that I haven't blogged in almost two years. That is ridiculous. I guess I was just feeling burnt out of the whole blogging thing. I felt like I had nothing much to say and I was setting my own expectations too high. I also have to admit I was having mixed feelings about having my life out there so much. I wanted to protect my family and children. But at the end of the day this has always been such a good outlet for me when I needed it and there isn't any more info out there than you can't already find some other way. (that doesn't mean it is a welcome sign for a bunch of creepers though).

So a lot has happened since December of '13.  And I promise I will play catch up and fill all of you lovely souls in about life but today I really just needed a place to vent.

My oldest (yep; for those of you that don't know, we added another one to the mix last August) is just wearing me out lately.  I feel so defeated by the end of the day, everyday.  I can't tell you the last time we have gone an entire day without a massive tantrum fight. I know that she is trying to find her way in this world and figure things out. I know that she is testing boundaries. I know that a lot of things have changed in her life and she needs some time to adjust to that.  I try so hard to remain calm and be patient with those but guys, there is only so much I can handle of that.

I feel lost. I feel like I am a failure because I can't keep my child happy.  We try to focus on her when I get the feeling she is having a hard time sharing our attention with her sister.  I make sure she knows how loved she is, and do special things together and have Kenne and mama dates and Andy does the same. We also want her to know that this is life though and she does have to share our attention. Still, nothing makes it better. We do things to let her run off her energy and tap into her creative juices and still there are just tantrums and no reasoning going on. 

She is so strong-willed. And not just for a 4 year old, but for a person. 

Does anyone have any magical advice that might work?  Please tell me that I am not the only one that is dealing with this.  "Terrible twos" were a dream in our house. Four?  Four is kicking my ass.


Monday, December 16, 2013

Christmas in our Home

I love Christmas.  That is no big secret if you know me. I am more than happy to admit that I put my Christmas trees, yes plural, up the first week of November. Why wouldn't I want to enjoy one of the happiest and most important times of the year as much as possible?

So this is what our home looks like these days.

A little bowl of cheer for my kitchen counter

Kennedy's Christmas Tree that she decorated for her playroom

Our Christmas tree in our lower living room

Always front and center.

Table centerpiece with candlesticks

My favorite new Advent Calendar that my stepdad bought me.

Always a Christmas canvas

Even my office got a touch of Christmas cheer.

Our front porch.

I will try to remember one of these nights to take pictures of our house and yard lit up. This is the first year that I wrapped our trees out front and put a couple yard ornaments up.

Tis' the Season.


Sunday, December 15, 2013

Kennedy's Birthday Party

I just realized that I never shared Kennedy's Birthday Party recap on here.

Our little peanut turned 3 on October 27th and we had a great time.  I was a little concerned how things were going to go or if I was going to have to cancel it at the last minute because it was in the midst of our miscarriage but I was able to push through and enjoy the day celebrating Kenne.

We decided to go with a Halloween costume theme this year and it was kind of all because of this adorable little Black Kitty costume that I found on Etsy.  I really really wanted Kennedy to wear it and thought she would look so adorable in it. Problem was, it was a tutu and usually on Halloween it is about 30 degrees outside. There was no way she could wear that without having to cover the whole thing up the entire time trick-or-treating. So then, I just decided to do a costume party and she could wear it then.

Unfortunately, about 5 minutes into Kennedy's party she took her entire costume off because "she couldn't do somersaults with it on" and all of the rest of the pictures that I had of her, she is with her little friends and out of respect for their privacy I won't be sharing them online.  So that you can get an idea of what she wore, this is the costume I had ordered. Please keep in mind that this costume is from the Etsy seller, so the picture is not my own.

I was so so happy with this seller and the costume. It looked exactly like the picture and Kennedy absolutely loved it. 


Saturday, December 14, 2013

Christmas Shopping

Christmas is right around the corner. Doesn't it always seem like you wait and wait and wait for it to come around and not look like a crazy person putting up lights at the beginning of November (guilty) and then once it is designated "Christmas time" you feel like it is going by too fast?  I think I need to move to one of those towns you see in the Hallmark Christmas movies… because those actually exist, you know. Ahem.

This year I came into the season knowing that I didn't want to get a ton of stuff. To be honest, to overload Kennedy with toys that she doesn't even have enough time in the day to play with is a huge waste of money. She has collected plenty of things in the mere 3 years she has been on this earth. So with that, I asked my sister, SIL and our parents that if they were going to get her anything for Christmas, to please get her things that they would like to keep at their house for her to play with when she visits. That way, we don't have to pack up toys for long stays over there, and she can see something "new" when she goes there.

As far as shopping for her, I pretty much did all of my shopping on Zulily.  They had so many different educational games and toys and things that I know she will have a blast playing with and I really liked that they identified which gifts you could buy that would be guaranteed for delivery by Christmas. If you are still looking for a few things, they still have that offer! I'd definitely recommend checking it out.

Andy and I also decided to kind of lay low for Christmas and just get each other a couple things.  I actually got him a pretty cool anniversary gift, which is on New Years Eve,  so I hope he enjoys that. In the midst of all of this getting ready for Christmas, and shopping, wrapping etc. I am also trying to stock up on "summery" things and start packing for Florida. We will be going for 3 weeks in January to Marco Island and lord knows I have all of my warm weather clothes tucked away far in the back of the closet.  Have you seen the weather out there?? Yikes. Today is considered a mild day and that is at a whopping 11 degrees.  yeah exactly.

It will be a nice littler vacation with the family where we can relax and soak up the sun.  This will be our 3rd year going to Florida with my in-laws and Kennedy really looks forward to it. She is obsessed with seeing Pelicans, so much so that my mother-in-law bought her a little stuffed animal pelican that makes noise. It took about a week before my dogs determined it was better suited for them as their new squeaky toy but it was fun while it lasted.

Hopefully you guys are enjoying the Christmas season so far and you have minimal stresses.  I know sometimes the holidays can be tough for people, whether it be financially, emotionally or any way it affects you. Hopefully you can find peace in the season and find something that you are thankful for and hold onto that.

Seasons Greetings, friends!