Andy and I are heading to Cancun on Sunday for a few days through a Chevy competition that Andy won. I would be lying if I said that I was totally excited and just couldn't wait.
Yes, I am totally excited & I really can't wait to be on a beach and have nothing to do but enjoy the gorgeous weather & location but there is more to it than that. I have equally conflicting feelings because I hate leaving Kennedy. So much so that when we were supposed to go on a trip just the two of us back in November I had such a bad anxiety attack about it that I canceled our trip and lost out on our deposit. I know, probably a little dramatic but I just hate leaving her. I like our family to be together. I know the chances of anything happening to us while we are gone is pretty much zero, but I still think about the fact that everytime I go somewhere without her there is a chance that I don't come back and then panic sets in. Please tell me someone else has that kind of fear sometimes and that I am not crazy? :)
So let's talk about the fun stuff we get to do while we are there! We are going to a resort with 100s of other Chevrolet dealers and their spouses throughout the United States so I am sure we are going to have a great time. Chevy has a bunch of fun activities, dinners and receptions for us to attend so we will get a chance to connect with other dealers and develop good working relationships with them. Along with their activities we got to pick two extra activities that we wanted to do on our own so we chose a couple's massage one day and a catamaran sail/snorkeling trip the other. I have an obsession with snorkeling ever since we went in Jamaica a few years ago so that was a no-brainer and I thought it might be nice to have a nice spa day and relax, get out of the sun for a bit and spend some downtime with Andy.
I know we will have a great time and we are only gone until Thursday but it is still tough to leave. My mom is taking Kennedy while we are gone and they already have a ton of fun plans for the week. Kennedy is going to help plant my mom's vegetable garden and my mom and aunt are going to take K and my aunt's granddaughter to the zoo which the girls can't wait for! I know that Kennedy won't even care that I am gone. She loves being at my mom's house and "helping at the farm." She usually runs around the farm playing basketball, picking flowers or chasing the chickens. :) Such a little country girl that I am raising!
Well, I should probably get some work done and then start our packing for the trip! I am hoping that by the time we get back most of the basement work will be completed & they will be ready for me to paint!
Happy Friday!
Friday, May 17, 2013
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
Trying
Today is one of those days that I need to remember that Kennedy is my little angel. I need to go to that place that I was the day she was born and snuggled against me. Today has been a very trying day, that I hope not to repeat.
It has been extremely busy at the dealership lately which means I have been working overtime. Like from 8:30 until 9:30 a couple of nights. I go to work, try to get as much as I can done there and then come home and try to get some more done. Normally, I am only at the office until 2pm and then I come home with Kennedy. The last two days though, I have been swamped at work. We just opened our newly renovated Parts Pro Shop at our store and I was in charge of stocking the inventory, pricing & setting it all up on display. Normally, I won't have that extra job to do but lately I have. So the last two days I have had my MIL bring Kennedy to the dealership after she woke up from her nap, which is around 2pm anyway. Yesterday I stayed until 5 and today 4:30. Whenever Kennedy has to be at the dealership, she usually does a pretty good job of listening & staying in my office. Today though, not so much.
Today we had tantrums and screaming. She would run away from me every chance she got. It was terrible. Especially trying to finish up my tasks as soon as I could so that we could leave. Then you get the people that say "oh terrible two's I see" and kind of chuckle. When really I want to say, just because she is two does not mean she needs to act like a jackass. ;) With all the love in the world for her of course. She was just very trying & giggled when she knew she wasn't listening and I was getting upset.
Then right at the moment where I was about to say screw this & just leave work...she turns it on. The "I love you mama" and wraps those little arms around my neck and kisses me. She knows how to push my buttons one minute and then how to suck me right back in the next minute with her little angelic face.
Needless to say, I keep focusing on the fact that I am off to get a mani/pedi when Andy gets home from work tonight. I get a little "me time". And the fact that they always have a glass of wine waiting for me at the salon doesn't hurt either. ;)
It has been extremely busy at the dealership lately which means I have been working overtime. Like from 8:30 until 9:30 a couple of nights. I go to work, try to get as much as I can done there and then come home and try to get some more done. Normally, I am only at the office until 2pm and then I come home with Kennedy. The last two days though, I have been swamped at work. We just opened our newly renovated Parts Pro Shop at our store and I was in charge of stocking the inventory, pricing & setting it all up on display. Normally, I won't have that extra job to do but lately I have. So the last two days I have had my MIL bring Kennedy to the dealership after she woke up from her nap, which is around 2pm anyway. Yesterday I stayed until 5 and today 4:30. Whenever Kennedy has to be at the dealership, she usually does a pretty good job of listening & staying in my office. Today though, not so much.
Today we had tantrums and screaming. She would run away from me every chance she got. It was terrible. Especially trying to finish up my tasks as soon as I could so that we could leave. Then you get the people that say "oh terrible two's I see" and kind of chuckle. When really I want to say, just because she is two does not mean she needs to act like a jackass. ;) With all the love in the world for her of course. She was just very trying & giggled when she knew she wasn't listening and I was getting upset.
Then right at the moment where I was about to say screw this & just leave work...she turns it on. The "I love you mama" and wraps those little arms around my neck and kisses me. She knows how to push my buttons one minute and then how to suck me right back in the next minute with her little angelic face.
Needless to say, I keep focusing on the fact that I am off to get a mani/pedi when Andy gets home from work tonight. I get a little "me time". And the fact that they always have a glass of wine waiting for me at the salon doesn't hurt either. ;)
Friday, May 10, 2013
Basement
Well since I have been away we have begun finishing our basement. By we, I clearly mean my husband & the contractors.
I cannot wait for the final product to be done. With the basement being finished we will literally double our living space. We will be knocking a wall out upstairs and opening it up to the basement, and adding a large playroom, dry bar, family room, bathroom & two bedrooms down there.
We were hoping to be finished by June but now it is looking like maybe a few weeks into June. As much as I want it to keep moving along, we lose a week because we will be heading to Mexico for a week in the middle of it. Guess I can't really complain.
With the basement in full finish mode, that also means I have been glued to pinterest. Yup, if you follow me on there I am 99% sure you probably already knew all about the basement projects.
Along with the basement project, we took apart the guest room last weekend (it will be downstairs now) and moved Kennedy into the bigger room and turned her old room into my office. Now maybe it will be easier for me to get some work done from home.
Kennedy got her new twin bed for her new room and some bedding. The new bed is a 50/50 feeling as far as she is concerned. She naps GREAT in it. She loves talking about it and showing everyone but at night she wakes up so much. I don't understand it. She will yell that it is too dark in her room. I don't know if not having the security of rails around her created some sort of fear of darkness or what but I am hoping she snaps out of it. Has anyone else had trouble getting their kids to sleep through the night once they got into a "big kid bed"?? I'd love to hear any thoughts/tips.
Well I will be back tomorrow to share some pictures with you guys of the projects going on but for now I will leave you with a picture of what we have been doing lately.
I cannot wait for the final product to be done. With the basement being finished we will literally double our living space. We will be knocking a wall out upstairs and opening it up to the basement, and adding a large playroom, dry bar, family room, bathroom & two bedrooms down there.
We were hoping to be finished by June but now it is looking like maybe a few weeks into June. As much as I want it to keep moving along, we lose a week because we will be heading to Mexico for a week in the middle of it. Guess I can't really complain.
With the basement in full finish mode, that also means I have been glued to pinterest. Yup, if you follow me on there I am 99% sure you probably already knew all about the basement projects.
Along with the basement project, we took apart the guest room last weekend (it will be downstairs now) and moved Kennedy into the bigger room and turned her old room into my office. Now maybe it will be easier for me to get some work done from home.
Kennedy got her new twin bed for her new room and some bedding. The new bed is a 50/50 feeling as far as she is concerned. She naps GREAT in it. She loves talking about it and showing everyone but at night she wakes up so much. I don't understand it. She will yell that it is too dark in her room. I don't know if not having the security of rails around her created some sort of fear of darkness or what but I am hoping she snaps out of it. Has anyone else had trouble getting their kids to sleep through the night once they got into a "big kid bed"?? I'd love to hear any thoughts/tips.
Well I will be back tomorrow to share some pictures with you guys of the projects going on but for now I will leave you with a picture of what we have been doing lately.
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| playing outside with chalk. |
Thursday, May 9, 2013
Dread
Honestly, I have felt like I have been dreading blogging. I don't know how but along the way I started to feel like I needed to fit a mold, stay away from controversial topics, or not fully state how I am feeling about things and why based on who reads my blog. Somewhere along the way I felt like I couldn't be myself.
I am a people pleaser. I have a hard time writing something down that I know cannot be taken back or unseen by people and what if one day I wanted to vent about certain things. I felt more concerned about offending people or hurting their feelings than getting out what I needed. I hate confrontation. HATE it. I would rather stew on it inside my own head than just spit it out. Well except to my husband. Poor guy. Him, I will say anything to at anytime. But that's a totally other topic. I like to write about happy things. Anytime I have something that may not be so interesting to read I just talk myself out of writing it at all. But then I tell myself that if I am not going to be true to myself and my feelings. Not write about everything in my life, good and bad, then what is really the point of blogging. I just need to make the decision to be uncensored and own it.
So that, my friends and family, is what I have decided to do. This is my space. This is my diary. I just so happen to want to share it with all of you. If I offend you in some way in the future, I hope you keep in mind it isn't intentional, but I can't apologize for being honest.
I want to be able to go back and read these blog entries and remember all things about my life. I want my children to be able to read about their mom when they grow up and be able to hold this in a special place of their heart. I can't tell you how much I wished I could read about my grandparent's younger adult years. The life as they saw it. Things about my mom growing up. I would have loved to have that memory. Unfortunately, I only have one living grandparent now and I missed out on all of those stories from the others.
So this blog is for me, but also...for my family. And I am feeling refreshed and ready to put myself back out there. I'm finally ready to write again.
I am a people pleaser. I have a hard time writing something down that I know cannot be taken back or unseen by people and what if one day I wanted to vent about certain things. I felt more concerned about offending people or hurting their feelings than getting out what I needed. I hate confrontation. HATE it. I would rather stew on it inside my own head than just spit it out. Well except to my husband. Poor guy. Him, I will say anything to at anytime. But that's a totally other topic. I like to write about happy things. Anytime I have something that may not be so interesting to read I just talk myself out of writing it at all. But then I tell myself that if I am not going to be true to myself and my feelings. Not write about everything in my life, good and bad, then what is really the point of blogging. I just need to make the decision to be uncensored and own it.
So that, my friends and family, is what I have decided to do. This is my space. This is my diary. I just so happen to want to share it with all of you. If I offend you in some way in the future, I hope you keep in mind it isn't intentional, but I can't apologize for being honest.
I want to be able to go back and read these blog entries and remember all things about my life. I want my children to be able to read about their mom when they grow up and be able to hold this in a special place of their heart. I can't tell you how much I wished I could read about my grandparent's younger adult years. The life as they saw it. Things about my mom growing up. I would have loved to have that memory. Unfortunately, I only have one living grandparent now and I missed out on all of those stories from the others.
So this blog is for me, but also...for my family. And I am feeling refreshed and ready to put myself back out there. I'm finally ready to write again.
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