Thursday, July 7, 2016

Oh hey! Remember me?

Hello Blogger friends!

Wow, I cannot believe how long it has been since I have written last. Let me play catch up real quick.

First and foremost, I am not only trying to keep up with Kennedy anymore. Now I have two little ones to keep up with. In August 2014, we welcomed our second little girl, Saylor.

Life with the two of them has been the most rewarding experience of my life. But damn, they push your buttons some times :)  Kennedy transitioned into the best big sister and she loves Saylor so immensely. I couldn't ask for more from her. And as for Saylor; Kennedy is her world.  She wants to be exactly like her big sister and do everything she does.  She has the best smile and likes to make new friends everywhere we go.  Such a ham.

Also, this past December we moved!  If you remember awhile back I mentioned that we were considering if we would move or build. We ended up finding a great spot out of town and along a river where the girls can run wild with our dogs. They love it. We love it.  It was such a great spot.  We purchased the land in the Fall of 2014 and built last summer/fall. It was quite a process and really made me learn patience and have faith that it would all work out and in the end it did all of that.

Off the top of my head I am trying to figure out if there is anything else I need to catch you up on but I think we will start with that.

So anyway, a bit of catching up there. Now onto some other projects that I have scheduled for today.  Make sure to follow me on Instagram for more frequent updates of life lately!


Saturday, August 8, 2015

4 year olds

Oh look who is blogging today! I know you are probably like "who the heck is this lady anyway?" 

I can't believe that I haven't blogged in almost two years. That is ridiculous. I guess I was just feeling burnt out of the whole blogging thing. I felt like I had nothing much to say and I was setting my own expectations too high. I also have to admit I was having mixed feelings about having my life out there so much. I wanted to protect my family and children. But at the end of the day this has always been such a good outlet for me when I needed it and there isn't any more info out there than you can't already find some other way. (that doesn't mean it is a welcome sign for a bunch of creepers though).

So a lot has happened since December of '13.  And I promise I will play catch up and fill all of you lovely souls in about life but today I really just needed a place to vent.

My oldest (yep; for those of you that don't know, we added another one to the mix last August) is just wearing me out lately.  I feel so defeated by the end of the day, everyday.  I can't tell you the last time we have gone an entire day without a massive tantrum fight. I know that she is trying to find her way in this world and figure things out. I know that she is testing boundaries. I know that a lot of things have changed in her life and she needs some time to adjust to that.  I try so hard to remain calm and be patient with those but guys, there is only so much I can handle of that.

I feel lost. I feel like I am a failure because I can't keep my child happy.  We try to focus on her when I get the feeling she is having a hard time sharing our attention with her sister.  I make sure she knows how loved she is, and do special things together and have Kenne and mama dates and Andy does the same. We also want her to know that this is life though and she does have to share our attention. Still, nothing makes it better. We do things to let her run off her energy and tap into her creative juices and still there are just tantrums and no reasoning going on. 

She is so strong-willed. And not just for a 4 year old, but for a person. 

Does anyone have any magical advice that might work?  Please tell me that I am not the only one that is dealing with this.  "Terrible twos" were a dream in our house. Four?  Four is kicking my ass.


Monday, December 16, 2013

Christmas in our Home

I love Christmas.  That is no big secret if you know me. I am more than happy to admit that I put my Christmas trees, yes plural, up the first week of November. Why wouldn't I want to enjoy one of the happiest and most important times of the year as much as possible?

So this is what our home looks like these days.

A little bowl of cheer for my kitchen counter

Kennedy's Christmas Tree that she decorated for her playroom

Our Christmas tree in our lower living room

Always front and center.

Table centerpiece with candlesticks

My favorite new Advent Calendar that my stepdad bought me.

Always a Christmas canvas

Even my office got a touch of Christmas cheer.

Our front porch.

I will try to remember one of these nights to take pictures of our house and yard lit up. This is the first year that I wrapped our trees out front and put a couple yard ornaments up.

Tis' the Season.


Sunday, December 15, 2013

Kennedy's Birthday Party

I just realized that I never shared Kennedy's Birthday Party recap on here.

Our little peanut turned 3 on October 27th and we had a great time.  I was a little concerned how things were going to go or if I was going to have to cancel it at the last minute because it was in the midst of our miscarriage but I was able to push through and enjoy the day celebrating Kenne.

We decided to go with a Halloween costume theme this year and it was kind of all because of this adorable little Black Kitty costume that I found on Etsy.  I really really wanted Kennedy to wear it and thought she would look so adorable in it. Problem was, it was a tutu and usually on Halloween it is about 30 degrees outside. There was no way she could wear that without having to cover the whole thing up the entire time trick-or-treating. So then, I just decided to do a costume party and she could wear it then.

Unfortunately, about 5 minutes into Kennedy's party she took her entire costume off because "she couldn't do somersaults with it on" and all of the rest of the pictures that I had of her, she is with her little friends and out of respect for their privacy I won't be sharing them online.  So that you can get an idea of what she wore, this is the costume I had ordered. Please keep in mind that this costume is from the Etsy seller, so the picture is not my own.

I was so so happy with this seller and the costume. It looked exactly like the picture and Kennedy absolutely loved it.