I made lists upon lists..trust me. I drove my husband crazy talking about it..trust me on that too I was just so lost.
My dream job as a career yes, but my "dream" job is being a mom. And having the opportunity to be very hands on with her. I never want to take that for granted because many people don't get that choice. Kennedy would have had to go to daycare full-time. This job would have been full-time, 5 days a week, and the office hours are 7:30-5:30. I just couldn't do it. I would feel like I hardly spent any time with Kenne each day. And I can't give that up right now. I am so very thankful that I have this option and trust me, I know how hard it must be for some people to have to work all week and it just is what it is. I may start working at the dealership more hours & in that case Kenne might have to go to a home daycare but if so, it would only be for 1 day a week. I am sure she would love to play with other kids all day anyway. But staying here I would still be able to leave or work from home on days when she wasn't feeling well, or if we wanted to go somewhere as a family. When it all came down to it, I just couldn't argue with the flexibility, no matter what the job & how great it was. Working for my FIL and having my mom & MIL be able to watch Kenne has been a godsend. I love the way the schedule is right now and I am not ready for that to change.
Besides, in the next year or so we hope to have another addition to the family and I will want to spend even more time at home. haha. (the or so is purely to cover my butt so that Andy doesn't start panicking.. we slightly disagree on when our next child should come along, god willing of course)
& if you haven't figured it out by now... I didn't go with the other job. Sadly for my husband, he is stuck with me at work.. :)